I had absolutely no plans to go
into the CBD this morning, but the tram was coming and there I was stepping
onto it, knowing full well that most, if not all shops would be closed. I walked from the Elizabeth Street stop
through Degreaves Street and then over the street to Brunetti’s where I ordered
a coffee and sat down. Coming up the
steps with two young children and an older woman was a man that I hadn’t seen
for fourteen years. We recognized each
other immediately and he said ‘Oh my God I was just thinking about you a few
days ago. Since he lives in Queensland and it was his last day in Melbourne
visiting his mother, we both agreed that it was amazing that we had run into
each other. If you think about it long enough our meeting was dependent upon so
many variables, the time the tram arrived, the pace at which I walked, my
decision and his to have coffee at Brunetti’s and maybe other things from his
point of view that I am unaware of, that enabled us both to converge on the
almost exact spot. He mirrored my
thoughts exactly when he said that these things always happened to him and he
was constantly surprised when they did. Sean and I worked together and I
remembered him fondly as the person who was ‘on my side’ - supportive, generous
in spirit and always willing to listen. As we spoke of the past, the
difficulties of working in that particular establishment and the camaraderie
that he and I enjoyed I realized that
perhaps what draws people towards an exact point in time and place is an
underlying desire to know that those who were there for us in the past are
alright, that life has been good to them, that they are loved because they were
so good to us. I would never had lasted in that job if it wasn’t for Sean and
after speaking with him this morning I understood that in some way I was also
that support person for him as well and, I would never have known that. I felt
exquisitely happy seeing him and he expressed similar sentiments, but what was
it that drew such emotion? Could it be that we miss people that we have cared
for, but life gets in the way and we package away any desire that we have for
past times (when we were different, when we were insecure) somewhere in our
deep recesses of our psyche because the feeling of missing someone can be all
consuming, or is it that the discomfort of working for that place was so unpleasant
that I buried all the good memories along with the bad? It was a bitter sweet
meeting and I had a little cry on the way home in the tram. A few wonderful
people come into and inhabit our lives and they disappear, or do we disappear
for them, whatever - it is such a joy when they reappear, albeit briefly to
remind us that we are thought of, and somewhere in the back of our minds we
also remember them.
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